Friday, October 26, 2007
10/26/2007 03:02:00 PM
I must be crazy recently. Too much things has happened...
I have been thinking about lots of things recently. Sometimes i just watch tv, but my mind is so far away.. thinking about the past, thinking about the future..thinking of my next steps.. some realistic some too farfetched some just merely just a thought..
However, thoughts in the mind is not as strong as the actions you do with your strength.
So, cailing you have to jia you and keep all negative thoughts away to achieve what you want!
Anyway, ting's wedding was officially complete and the kopitiam bride is now honey-mooning in Japan with her hubby. Lucky her! I also wanna tour Japan, get myself into a onsen and wear yutaka and enjoy a table full of sumptuous fresh sashimi and other cuisines :P
sad..my sponsorship disappeared le! should i find new ones? :O
Sometimes, i believe that doing something out of the box is quite fun too. Like getting a new boyfriend! heeeheee or simply take up a new hobby/activity. Recently the F1 night racing is quite hot in Singapore and since it will start in 2008.. i urge to take driving lessons. So i can drive and tour my homeland as and when i like without incurring much expensive cab fares. But where's the car? guess i can try to borrow my brother-in-law's honda :P but i must get life insurance from Fabian first..Must go check out Class95 activity on winning a Subaru..
Life and school has been busy and busy and busy. Still trying to clean my cabinets for new space to put things into place and getting my better life straight from all evils!
Sidetracking, I also want to learn dancing. Any good suggestions, friends?
~ let it be! i need a breather anyway.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
10/16/2007 01:52:00 PM
I have been pondering over these questions again and again..why am i still like that??
1) always late! no matter what it is..going for class, outing or just even picking up something! i can even be late for work! gosh...i really have to kick this real bad bad bad habit...
2) no determination! before i sleep at night, i will mentally reminded myself what time i have to wake up the next day. But when the alarm clock(sss) went off the next morning, i simply can't be bothered and just kicked them out of my sight. As a result, late for class, never go for class.
Today's a excellent example of it. I have repeated this too much a time last semester. Sighz, probably that's why i still can't pass my sociology. Endurance zero! Have to go to library/mac to study. If not i simply rot at home...are you girls facing such problems too, just can't concentrate at home..too much distraction such as tv(cable!), bed(humugous temptation) and the PC(aww youtube)...
I also swore to myself that I will be XX kg by ting's wedding dinner..! but look, ting's wedding is just around the corner and i have yet to honour my promise! i am still bloody 6X! sigh... this is simply frustrating.
3) No discipline at all. I have lotsa assignments this semester. The lecturers simply lay out all the assignment at the first lecture and that we are warned to submit, if out he simply chase you around to mark the damn tutional. But i tried taking the stuff infront of me and do it. But it's just not working. Even if my mind keeps telling me...must do must do must do...
4) Officially unemployed and nearly broke. This, i guess i don't have to explain further. My timetable is so packed or rather the timing is pretty stagnant that i can't find any suitable part time to work. Friends tell me to teach tuition. Fast cash, flexible timing and not really that tough after all. I know..but it's OCT now.. off-peak season..really difficult to find students who want tuition teachers now or a change of teacher. Almost impossible! I still have a loan to undertake. I guess i have to fasten my belt to survive for the many unbearable nights..
Sighz, this is a very crucial year of my life. Either make it or break it situation. . i hope i can have a win-win situation...you know..like i happy, the people around me also happy...
why so tough? -_-"
~ let it be! i need a breather anyway.
Monday, October 15, 2007
10/15/2007 02:45:00 PM
just some quick updates...
my favourite xiao dong gua drinking miruku on the floor!
Took this outside a Japanese spagetti-fusion restaurant! It was wen's birthday celebration and we were at Marina Square. How was it? Looks delicious, huh? =)
~ let it be! i need a breather anyway.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
10/03/2007 06:37:00 PM
Sometimes i find that karma comes in unexpected way in our lives.
Like for example, i remembered my dad picked up a $5 dollars at his ex work place and the next morning, I accidentally dropped a dollar coin while walking to the ma-ma stall to get newspapers for him. It dropped into the grassfield for just one second and I never saw it again. Tried looking, but to no valid. I sulked the way home and told my mummy, 'see, papa pick money. i drop money. not fair.' here, i would say karma want me to understand that, someone has to bleed a little to keep the game playing on and to balance out the game...so someone else gain and lose something on..
hmm, maybe this also teaches us not to pick up money that doesn't belong to you. :P
Also, I remembered saying to my ex boyfriend, 'i was the one who initiated my previous relationship and so i was the bad guy. Dunno if karma will find me one day?'
Most probably karma heard me and made a note mentally to punish me later in my life.
I wondered my puppy love was heartbroken when i told him it's over for us. I guess he was? because he refused to pick up all my calls after that last phone call...after all, we were only so young that time..
What about my previous relationship? I ended my last relationship, with him initiating the breakup.
For me, I was in extreme heart-break-broken situation. For him, it's a question mark still.
Still, life still goes on, you know as all sayings say.. I still have to breathe, eat shit sleep study my degree course with more goals to look forward in LIFE..that's why you have me writing this entry ma...rite?? heehee..ok ok continue..
Once after my Jap class, I met my puppy love at the library. It was really a very dramatic thing for me as I have never met with such incidents before. I saw him outside with his girl friend (yes, he has a girl friend now! ) and the gf was kinda consoling him while he looked really pissed off. Then i made a snap decision not to disturb the two of them since things don't look that great. So i scooted off with my gal friend to the ladies. When i came out and walked down the escalator, he saw me, with that unbelievable look on his face. He waved his arm to me at once. Seriously speaking, I was taken aback. Not because of that look, but more to the extent that after all these years of rare contact, he still remembers me after all. But to avoid any awkwardness, i just smiled and mouthed 'hello' and headed down to B1, without turning back.
I came home and found myself turning and tossing to sleep that night.
I believe karma found me here, at this point. That i actually gave up this nice fella for some immature ideas of the past. And then later faced with real life obstacle which i again failed to cherish the one who used to love me so much.
and now, i am just me, trying to pick my life straight again.
Karma, if you wanted me to learn about doing a mistake right, i've paid a serious fee for it.
~ let it be! i need a breather anyway.
